While I don't leave for another 17 days for Seville, the anxiety
and nervousness has already set in incredibly. The anxiety comes from being
away from Seattle, my family, friends, college and life in the States for nine
whole months. And while people keep telling me that this is going to be the
adventure of my life, that it is so exciting, and it is going to be amazing - I
can't help but be anxious and nervous. If I were to stay in McMinnville, Oregon
for my junior year, I can picture exactly how everything is going to go. I know
whom I would be living with, I know how recruitment for Alpha Phi would go, and
I'd know what to expect in general. And it would have been a really amazing
year.
But I don't know the family and people I am living with, I don't
know how the first couple weeks are going to go, and I don't have that great of
a grasp of what is going to be going on. I've been to Spain before, and I loved
it. But I was only there for a month, with a family who I knew, and I was not
studying in a foreign language.
I realize this is not the most uplifting way to go to Europe, and right now I believe that it is truly a great deal of anxiety. These few weeks before I go are just a lot. I will be excited to go and live there - once I get there. I know that I am going to have a fantastic time.